Saturday, February 18, 2012

Life Interrupted: How It All Began

If you are new to Vicky's story, you may want to begin here.

Life Interrupted
The Journey of Jehovah Rapha's Daughter
by Victoria Overholt

Lord, I need to move along with this journal as so much has happened since December. I guess I will get most of the ugliness out of the way, not to bring any kind of glory to the darkness... but because you tell us not to be ignorant of the schemes of the devil.

Ron & Vicky with Clarice and family

Your word says in Ephesians 6:12-13 "For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. Therefore put on the full armor of God, so when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything to stand." 

I'm standing, thanks to You and the prayers and encouragement of your people.

I can think back and see the battle. One night before I was even diagnosed or had the biopsy, I woke up with a horrible thought in my mind. The thought was that I would rather die than lose a breast. Who, but the enemy of my soul, would put that thought in my mind. Of course, I happen to like being a woman, but I'm not so vain as to sacrifice my life. That was the first of many times I had to rebuke the enemy. 

After my diagnosis, I wasn't sleeping well. If I did I would have horrible dreams. I guess even now I
can't write them down. I've thought many times back to 1985 when my doctor found two lumps, one in each breast and said they needed to come out. When he did a pre-op check, the one on the right was gone. The one on the left was removed and was benign. Because of that, he told me I should have mammograms every year and that I had fibrocystic breast disease. He told me to cut down on caffeine and do self-exams. 

Lord, you know I've been doing that. I've tried to be healthy. I've done the self-exams. I've had mammograms every year for all these years. 

In the spring of 2010, I found a lump on my right breast. I kept checking it and it would come and go with my cycle.
The doctor who had removed my previous lump had retired so I went to an OB/GYN office where Clarice was going.  I had the lump checked out.  She told me if it would come and go with my cycle that it was probably a cyst and nothing to worry about. She ordered an ultrasound which showed a cluster of benign fluid filled cysts. 

I continued to check it... it continued to come and go. 

In the Spring of 2011 when I went for my annual physical, it was checked again. It was still there. I went for my mammogram and they also did some magnifications. The mammogram was negative. 

All through the summer and fall, it came and went. Then one night in November, I woke up in the middle of the night with extreme, sharp, shooting pain in the lump area. From that time on, I knew something was different and it wasn't going away. 

I wonder if the doctor's believe me or anyone believes me when I tell them that's what happened. People will ask me if I can feel it. Yes, I can feel it. The doctor tells me she thinks its been there about a year and a half. She thinks it was hidden somewhere among the cysts. That makes me ill to think about. 

Lord, you know I wouldn't walk around with a 4.2 cm tumor and do nothing. It presents itself
as larger than that so they don't think all that can be felt is cancerous. So the enemy comes along and tries to tell me that it's my fault. 

If only.... 

What if....

You should have...
Pastor Don and Lisa reassure me that they are lies and to cast down all evil imaginations. They told me I did all I could have done and who knows if I still might be at this place no matter what I may have done differently. 

My doctors assure me I did all I could have done. One doctor told me that the mammogram is actually a very poor test but it's all we've got.

Then there's the disclaimer at the bottom of the mammogram results stating that if you have dense breasts it's harder to pick out the masses that may be there.
Lord, you know I can't think about those things anymore. The journey is here and I have to fight, but not alone. You are with me and my friends and family and your many faithful prayer warriors. I really hadn't wanted to tell anyone about this, still.. as people were told and started praying for me, I could feel the answers to those prayers and Your peace surrounding me.
I am here to expose the darkness by your word that we might not be ignorant. I would encourage any who don't know You Lord, to call out to You and accept You into their life. I would encourage those who know You, to know the authority we have as believers.

I stand on your word!

John 10:10 The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy. I came that they may have and enjoy life, and have it in abundance( to the full, till it overflows).

2 Timothy 1:7 For God has not given us a spirit of fear , but of power and of love and a sound mind.
Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you says the Lord. Plans to prosper you and not to harm you. Plans to give you a hope and a future.
I can't even imagine going through this without You in my life, Lord. I'm leaning on Your everlasting arms.

More Family Photos
Daughter Angie with husband, Dustin

Baby Trinity

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